4:30AM – Coffee/Meditation
Along with Autobiography of Yogi (evening reading), I’m diving back into Fit Body, Fit Soul, for daytime reading and studying. This time it’s different, I’m taking notes and going apeshit with my highlighter. For me there are so many important and relevant concepts buried within the main theme of “having a fit soul and a fit body is the secret to true happiness.” There are other books that I’ve paid as close attention to, the Big Book for one, but the way Mark and Brant (authors) lay out their content, it’s just so simple for me to read, soak in, and apply.
According to their research, stress will be the number one occupational hazard in this century. I believe it. The stress that I feel from people, places, and things, when I’m not being mindful, can be completely overwhelming. Now that I’ve seen just how much stress can affect my mindset and mood I’m hyper-aware of situations that other people bear witness to. In the pharmacy, grocery store, traffic, coffee shops, it’s everywhere. Have you ever stood in line at a pharmacy and just watched people as they go through the process of having their prescriptions filled? Holy hell, it’s my nightmare. God bless Jeff (aka, #10, best friend), I couldn’t do it like he does. Furthermore, stress is linked to the top six causes of death in the United States: heart disease, cancer, lung ailments, accidents, cirrhosis of the liver, and suicide. For me, I feel grateful to have identified its true effect on my lifestyle. Now it’s just a matter of applying the tools I have learned through mindfulness to better defend myself against a condition that previously caused an undeniable amount of personal heartache. Here’s the most important tool for me, brought to light by my guy Wude: insert gap, take 3 deep breathes, move forward. It seems to work every single time.
10:00AM – I just returned home from a very intense and powerful therapy appointment. Never before have I shed so many tears and found myself so exposed and vulnerable in such a setting. Luckily, other than an afternoon run, I don’t have any commitments. In using the mindfulness techniques that I have learned over the last couple of weeks I am going to do my best to take care of myself for the rest of the day. Today I’m in desperate need of peace, quiet, and a sense of tranquility to help process what I just experienced.
That’s all for the day.