4:00AM – Coffee/Meditation
Today I’m pretty clear that some days are better than others when it comes to being able to clear my mind and just breathe. This morning was a challenge in this regard, reinforcing the fact that meditation isn’t about adhering to the labels of good or bad, it just IS.
I’m currently in the midst of some heavy mental processing. Emotionally, there is some hard work being done as I’m beginning to reconcile a part of me that I’ve never been able to let go. Breathing and being mindful during this process is a tool more valuable than I ever thought imaginable.
In a couple of hours I’m going to make my way back down to Ashland, a town that I’m slowly falling in love with. A friend of mine has given me the opportunity to housesit for her this weekend so that I can head back in to the rugged Siskiyou Mountain range to get in some good hard miles. In talking with my buddy Andrew yesterday while running I found myself wondering why the Siskiyou’s mean so much to me. After talking it through I realized that last September, while racing Pine to Palm 100 (a point to point race that traverses the Siskiyou’s), I underwent a significant period of self-realization. During that race I became raw, stripped down to the core, and vulnerable. The physical suffering that I experienced that day opened up a door for me to explore the bare bones of what I’m about. Therefore, I’m always excited to return to Southern Oregon and continue my work in the mountains
6:30PM – Didn’t have to much of a chance to get in some meditation today as I spent most of the day in the car. I feel a little off in regards to having inner peace, maybe that’s just the effect of traveling. On the flip side I got in some great miles in Ashland, re-visiting a portion of the Pine to Palm 100 course. I don’t think it’s really even set in yet that I actually ran for 100 miles last September. Freaking crazy. Experiencing the course today was a fantastic way to re-visit the feat as I was able to run the last 10 miles of the course all the way to what would be the finish line.
The house I’m staying at is fantastic. There’s a huge window in the living room overlooking part of the Siskiyou mountain range. This will be a perfect spot to catch up on some well-needed meditation tonight as the sun goes down.
Time to get my turmeric/ginger/magnesium mocktail on and call it a night. Stoked to have another big day in the mountains tomorrow!
Check out the blogpost that started this journey through mindfulness: https://spencernewell1032.wordpress.com/2017/03/11/the-fight-with-my-mind-something-needs-to-change-today/